First Post: The Story of How I Became Happy

So on this first post I will tell you how my life has become balanced, joyful and how I have this much energy to use every day.
First of all, I can tell you about my bullies, all those people that have brought me down and made me feel like nothing, because they made me rise again stronger, they made me hate these expectations they put on us everyday and they made me grow beautiful.
I am not saying I am glad or thankful. I have learned from this in a way I wish nobody else does.
At first, I thought "Hey, if they hate me so bad, why won't I change myself?" I tried and I felt like a walking lie, a lie that was still made fun of.
I couldn't be changed back, I was the new me, and I had to find myself again.
After years of self-loathing, low self-esteem and higher expectations about who I was to be, I had a hard time trying to fit in family, friends and life all over again with my messed up thoughts and what I was becoming.
I still lived, I really tried so hard to have a normal life.
I made friends quickly, easily, friends charmed with my forever positive attitude and my funny laugh.
They gave me more courage than anyone and so I grew stronger, happier and more confident and I was smiling on a daily basis.
Deep inside, it wasn't over, the sadness, the confusion and the self-loathe.
I couldn't say I was healed, because the wound was still there, slowly healing, but not healed.
I did a lot of mistakes and I learned more than ever from them.
There came a time I searched for love so it could heal me.
Romantic love, the movie theater love, the love we're all looking for with all the wrong reasons.
I found something more when almost falling into a pit of despair when I was in the middle of the mess of relationships, teenager camps and newfound friends. I found my partner, aka Griffin, who I have now dated a year. How did he save me? Well he didn't. Love didn't save me, it was me.
I was ashamed of the mess I was and with a goal set on my mind, I made through my last year in college with pretty good grades and I was admitted to my upper secondary school of dreams.

The summer I did sports, I ate healthy, I found a totally new self who is agnostic and believes in nature as a power, just like it is. I haven't tried to be fit, I haven't been on a diet, I just ate how I felt like I should and thought "This feels good!" Because I don't need results!
All I need is the capacity to move and to feel good in my body and I couldn't ask for more. Sport hasn't changed my life, I changed my life with sport. Now I am regularly going to kickboxing training, a rough sport, and I eat as healthy as I can in the mess of school and work and future. I don't care about calories, or fat or too much sugar, I can enjoy as much of sweets and delicious food I want as long as I remember there is the healthy better way. And that I follow that way.

This blog has just started, but I hope it becomes pretty successful. I will soon enough post a few recipes and good links. And maybe a few tips on how to eat healthier.